DIDnt you agreed on makING ME FALL FOR YOU. DIDNT WE AgrEED THAT IT WAS A PLAN? HOW COME I'VE CARRIED OUT THE PLAN AND U DIDNT?

oh its a very happening day today.
Firstly, i was late in the morning cuz i didnt wanna attend my assembly as my eyes were terribly swollen. And when i was dressing myself up, My so called cousin came to my house and said hello. Like, at 7+?! Then i got shocked. HAHA ok.
then i arrived school and the first lesson was english. So tcher asked us to use some vocabs to write an essay, the happy thing that happened in my life. i wrote bout my friends. Then tcher said mine was quite a good one so she read out. i was like. omg?! Pls dont..

Then during recess, mr sim told me he will be seeing my mum this noon and expect me to be in school. i was so sian 1/2.

K then during maths lesson, we were supposed to finish our worksheets and then we ended up playing poker cards. Mr sseah, my maths tcher then saw and she shout at us like, "wa.. wa... WAA!!!! PLAY CARDS IN MY CLASS HUH?!?" Then she took it away, no choice we had to do it.

Then during the second recess, some doggy came to mess with us. Now my face like cui like that. Not handsome liao :( Thanks my bros, kah siang, darryle, edwin, another one act one la but still, reluctantly a thanks.

Then had to settle it then sigh was supposed to meet jiyoon geraldine edwin zx and xinni. ended up meeting them late. Plus my face like cui how to go other places..

Now i really want to talk to mum badly but she's not even at home -.-

Okay, as usual, the last paragraph is for you.
I've lost all hopes. My desire to have u back is gone. So sorry i got tired of everything that happened. You said i hung u in suspense everynight. what about you? You made me swim in tears everynight, drowning to sleep. My mirth are all gone. If u need me back in your life, tell me. I believe i would still turn back for the damn last time, if you tell me to do so. If u dont need me anymore, please dont talk to me. Let me get over you and put everything down.

Okay first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFANY HALIM WITCH HANTU OR WHATEVER.

Okay i was sick today so i didn't attend school. Hmm. I think i missed alot. Damn. sigh. Today we had 2 periods of chinese and didn't get to see Huici laoshi. Then English lesson had oral and i missed the laughters. Sigh. Then met xinni and gang at school opposite, then went to hub with popo, zo, edwin, xinni, geraldine, sasha, and kim. then bought present for birthday girl. Ha, i'm finnaly home and dead beat. geeez. Bye i needa do d&t while chatting with my baby auszxlovesME

Hello dude. watch out your steps cuz you stepped on my tail.
You'll get it tomorrow.

Baby before it's too late.

I thought bout you again. And i fell again.

You made me stopped every single damn thing.

You pushed me out of your life.

Firstly, i want to declare my love for my broster, edwin.
He's so wonderful listener and funny friend.
And always got bullied by us! Ok! Edwin Foo Hou Rong i love you muack muack.

Today went to play bball aft school. thn gone home to take bike and change clothes. Went to meet ks and gang again. then went goodspeed to play dota, TOTAL FAIL. Then l4d.
Aft that slacked and now homed. It was really quite summarized cuz i'm really lazy to detail it.
Oh well i'm tired and tmr there is chingayz! :((( LAZY again.

Oh well, you blame me for everything. I'm sorry to say i'm really stupid i don't know how to show that i've changed when you're not even giving me a chance to. Whatever. "I know its all excuses that you didn't want me back. Face it that you no longer feel a thing for me. Damn you. I once decided to wish for the wish for you to come back to me on my bday. But then, well i have to face the fact that wishes don't come true. It was only just a dream. You won't and you won't. U said i have to prove whatever things. So come, prove me that u still love me. Can you do it? I doubt you. :)

I think i'm giving up on every single damn thing.

You don't seemed to care. I should start not giving a fuck bout saving things between us too.

Sorry.

You want me to speak the truth? Alright.
I love you.
I wanna be with you again.
I miss you every single minute of my life.
I didn't dare to look at you because i was afraid of your words.
I realised i couldn't love someone else like how i loved you.
I've got used to you. I can't find anyone else to take them as you.
I know i messed things up.
I'm sorry for what i've done in the past that hurt you.
I would change for you if you're willing to let me have you back.
I'd nver let you go ever again.

I'm sorry. Sorry is just a word. But i'm feeling it. I know you wouldn't come back. Its aching in my heart when i think of it. I blame myself for everything. Once again, i'm feeling all these shit all over again. It's just because of the feelings i haven't lost.

I wished i could make it right.

BORED BORED BORED

Everytime my phone vibrates, how much i wished it was from you.

You will.

Okay i admit i was in a foul mood today. Sorry friends especially Edwin. :/ loveyoulah walaolea :*
haha. I tried to hide every inch of my feelings becuz i didnt want anybody to know That i was affected. Ok but i guess everyone knows it all. :((( FAIL.

Saw Arina at f1 pit and we were so excited.. hah i really dunno why.

And now, straight after i got home, Sister gave me pissing off attitude and nags, brother gave me trouble for every minute of my life. Really hate it when everybody's expecting smthg from me when i'm FUCKING TIRED.
FUCK IT.

Please don't piss me off thank you very much and goodnight.

Hold me back, again.

Went for chingay dance rehearsal yesterday. And then we were just dancing behind some ah guas and really really distracted us. We laughed so damn loud until everybody looked at us. hahaha..

Okay schooldays kinda pass fast.. idk why, but its like became more fun. I hope i wouldn't try to boycott school this year.

Oh yeah anyways, recently i kinda have frequent dejavu feelings. Idk why and it really made me reminiscence. And, i kinda miss everything in the past.

I miss you.

Whatever it takes, I wanna see you.

I'm so sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i fell through.

Sorry that i've fallen in love with you

Sorry it came through but sorry doesn't turn back time.

Sorry that i loved you

Sorry that i needed you

Sorry that i held you tight.

Sorry love, i wasted your time.

If i was given another chance, i'll never ever give you up EVER AGAIN. Sorry

I think i miss you. Yes i think i do.

I hate myself cuz i'm missing a bitch.

Okay lessons were great.
I was so glad that my maths teacher is mrs seah instead of LOCK TZE CHIANG-'-
Hmm actually idk what to blog about. I'm kinda no longer so talkative :/

Hey. If you wanna look at me, just look and smile. Don't look at me secretly and then turn away when u realised that i noticed you looking.

I apologise. For what i felt deep in, that might really hurt you.
I'm really feeling guilty out of it.

And you, (its another you)
I apologise too. I'm scared of you that i really felt like crying whenever i see you. Sorry.

Easy come Easy go

That's just how you live oh

Take take take it all

But you never give,

Should of known you were trouble

From the first kiss had your eyes wide open,

Why were they open?

Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash,

You tossed it in the trash, you did.

To give me all your love is all I ever asked cause

What you don't understand,

Is id catch a grenade for ya.

Throw my hand on the blade for ya,

Id jump in front of a train for ya.

You know I'd do anything for ya.

OhhhI would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain.

Yes I would die for ya baby,

But you won't do the same.

Nooooo

Black, black, black and blue

Beat me till I'm am numb tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where you're from.

Bad women bad women

That's just what you are yeah

You smile in my face than rip the breaks out my car.

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,

You tossed it in the trash yes you did.

To give me all your fuck