It's gonna be hard, not seeing you so many days and weeks.
I was weak when i'm supposed to be strong.
Sometimes, i feel like giving up. But yet, i held on because it was a promise.
I'm so tired when i know its all my choice, and i only have one choice, give up.
I really have no idea whether could i hold on, until i get the answer. Because no one knows how hard and painful it is, to hold on a string that is gna be broken.
It's my choice, and i know the choice that i chose was foolish.
Everything changed, even if i got what i wanted, things are no longer going to be the same as the past. Although it was so much that i wanted back the past, it's not gna fulfill me. This is the first time that we aren't contacting. I hope i don't break the promise.

It's gna be hard for me.

This is my challenge, but if i fail, I'm sorry. That's all i could say.

I hope we can have no more quarrels. I'm only left with these few days...

Feeling so shitty now manzxz!
Wah stdy, not i dont wan forget. is just that its really hard to let go now. Cuz i realised my mistake, that is why im feeling regret and sad.

Especially now, the feeling is just too strong to be broken down, yet someone has taken over ur heart. If i could, seriously i wanna just forget everything. But the thing now is i seriously very hard to let go. So many people trying to councile me. Yet seriously i dont give a damn shit bout what they're saying. Just feeling so ignorant bout what the msg they're trying to convey. But i found it true though. But wahpiang eh. seriously i feel like dying.

I AM FUCKING HELL REGRETTING NOW!

NA class is definetely more fun than express classes i swear it man! They went science centre yet we have to stay in school, somemore in the D&t workshop. what the shit man.

Gonna prepare soon, hehe. later got something on, and the 2nd part of that "something on" is so damn impt to me although i know ITwill no longer be impt.


PS: The word hurt no longer exist in my dictionary

I just edited my blog anyways, there's a picture below yeah :]

Anyways, anyone noticed why dint i remove my plurk although im not using it? Cuz i just dont feel like!

2nd post!

So sian cant use net later lerr... momma kpkb-ing. I wanna maple :[
Tmr jz all going science centre, i feel like going:[
i guess next yr i sure drop to na liaoo~

Just kept thinking the same thing. Fuck mannnn!

Tmr's plan : Basketball at opposite, maybe. Next, course at Thomson♥
I'm gonna do smth after my course. Makes me so excited.
I wanna....
WAIT!

@the shelter. This time, i guess no one will come for me ever again. Just wanna wait again, once more. Wait for nothing... Used to see that "sweetlittleassyofmine" walking out with that ghost~
But this time, haiz.. Sure no one, But just hurting memories.. So might be home late!
tyehehe.

End of post.. Dont wanna thrash so much here. keep it in my heart :]

Basketball while waiting for edwin and co. , leg and waist sibeh pain ah. Then come le, go hub buy zhihao bag,mac, then go multistory carpark, relac relac abit.

Went ks house area bought chiong, then slack around there, then off to amk cc play bball again-.-
Homed now, here pain there pain. Especially heart pain :[

Seriously, 我老了
come my website,
www.gg.com.sg/AlexeaYongBoDiesOfPains

No lah fake nia lah.

Forget everything yeah?
G,

i'm ur devil, forget me yeah. Wish u happiness, successful.



And, edwin foo, i promise to go anything with a pair of shades. So that nobody knows im crying. :]
And walk in the rain wearing a pair of shades. its just like maplesea, family rep x2 exp + CS x2 exp + spirit pendant + ringer!
POWER UP.

Anyway, my game is over, i dont have to act anymore.
All i can do now, is sad to my fullest (Y)
I'd rather think of the past then current. It just stabs like a dagger.

YOUR WORLD IS MY WORLD

My fight, is ur fight.
My breath is ur breath.

Just came back from primary school gathering, quite fun although not many people. Throw desmond down, next is malcolm!

Weiyen forgot to bring the butter, so we made him to go and buy, yet he bought margarine-.-
Next epic thing was, HE FORGOT TO TAKE A BRUSH.

Very epic thing was, WE CAN'T APPLY THE MARGARINE SAUCE WITHOUT THE BRUSH!

He was there acting cute, he thinks he looks innocent and no one would bully him. In the end, the girls massaged him with CHOCOLATE SAUCE! Very classic.
Now i'm back home, very boreddd.


Many things happened, i hop it would end earlier. I just hope you gimme a chance, we'll start afresh. I promise to treat u well, not like the past. And this promise, i will never break.

REALITY

Many things happened within this few days. It also made me realise what situation and position i am in right now. I cannot decide for others, but i can decide for myself. I know i'm no longer impt in ur life. You used to need me desperately. But now, you changed. I know what to do already. I won't be like those who know they're losing the battle, yet kept on fighting. I surrender..

Last night, its a great heart to heart talk with GrisseldaP. That's the only thing that made me realise so much things. What i want to say, i have left it for you. That's all.


To all my siao bo group people, I'm leaving for malaysia on saturday night. after my primary school gathering bbq. Might be going for the rest of the holiday. Becuz my mom wans me to work in singapore. I stay in singapore, either be happy and play, or dont do anything. i dont wan to be tied down by works.

Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih

Sudahi air mata darimu

Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku

Kan menghapus dukamu sayang
Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku

Dengarkan dengarkan aku
Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku

Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu

Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu

Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu
Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan

Sekuat semampuku sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku

Dengarkan dengarkan aku

This song is great... understand it, u'll understand my heart. how much u meant to me. I need not say so much. i know it over.. i will not get my hopes high again

谎言

I will engrave this two word, 谎言, in my heart.
nobody ever put themselves into my shoes to think for me. everything i did was wrong. i was wrong to care. Maybe the way i care is wrong, but it shows i care.
I was angry so i scolded those. I didn't mentioned bout the past. i was talking bout presently..
I know you're outside having fun with them again, i will and i already gave up. Forget it.. You said that sentence that really made me felt like kna bang by car. i felt myelf being pushed so hard that i flew... I was.. NUMB. Nvm. i will not look at the past. Eyes are grown in front of our head and not back of our head, so that we can look forward instead of the bad memories left behind us.

I hope you ignore me and pretend not to see me when we're in school. Hope when you go back, u will find ur true happiness, someone better than me.