Monday, December 27, 2010

I gave up. On every single thing.
WHY THE FUCK.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Its just you.

You seemed like you don't appreciate. I was wrong. You do appreciate by smiling behind my back.

You don't say you love me. And i thought u don't. But i was wrong. You love me like fuck.

You never kissed me, and i thought u didn't love me as much. But i was wrong. You were just shy to express your love for me.

You ring me up because i didn't reply to your text. And i thought you were just bored. But i was wrong. You missed me.

You waited for me till my soul appeared. And i thought u were just hanging around. but i was wrong. You wanted to see me.

You apologised when we quarrelled, and i thought u were being sarcastic. But i was wrong. You just want to end it all.

You accused and suspected me. And i thought you were trying to mess with me. But i was wrong. You don't wanna lose me.

You said ok when i mention broke-up. And i thought you were ready for it. But i was wrong. You wanted me to chase u all over again.

You said you love someone else. And i thought you just want to hurt me. But i was wrong. You just want me to prove my love by jealousy.

And now, i was wrong to let u go. And i was right to cry.

Thank you baby.
I don't have the best face for you to look at.
I don't have the body for you to hug.
I don't have a dick for you to fuck.
But i have one only heart to love you, want it, take it.
But make sure you dont lose it.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Okay tmr is christmas eve. We're gng to snow city then probably sheesha or smth?
Haiz november and december is disastrous. tak boleh tahan siol. Idk what to blog about also.
Today accompanied edwin to Angmokio ave 6 to dye his hair. Then went back to amk central carpark slack. We crazied there and whored there :/
Whilst i was walking home, saw youhong anthony and yanfeng at my void deck. So joined them to slack also. Were talking bout olden days we were in bps.. Like, smoking in toilet stuffs like that. That's probably all. Goodnight.

All i want for christmas is you.

Monday, November 29, 2010

I'm sorry.

第一,我想说声对不起你。
希望你看得到这个。我很希望你真的会相信我真的爱你。我不能忘了我们拥有过的一切。我也希望你不会忘。
我多么希望爱一个人,是真正的“无条件”。
对,我爱你。没错。
I wanna have a new hairstyle at Andy's Jean yip. But that stupid edwin dont wanna accompany :( pui him a lot. Haiz. hungry now again. Had bihun bakso at Jtown cafe at midpoint orchard. Hmm. not bad. And and and saw kenny and jason there. Kenny went there to claim his free birthday martabak-.-
I'm seriously hungryyy! Ok, pool tmr yeah dude. with huimin chen chen and win win. (probably)

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Erhem..
Kinda busy nowadays with work, shopping for fishes.
Okay here's the story for today.
Yimlee and i wanted to go to pasir ris fish farm and buy fishes but then after that we changed our mind and headed to serangoon RAINBOW aquarium shop (Which was a definitely wrong choice)
Then erm we were like shopping around, gazing here and there. Try'na make some ppl catch our attention BUT sadly, none.
Oh btw, 2 things hilarious today.
First, we ate at a coffee shop and there was like "curry" residue on my plate after i finished my meal. And yim lee and i were picking food stuck in between our teeth, then of course we need some tissues. So Yimlee offered me some wet tissues. After using it, i threw it on the plate, and something struck my assy mind. I poke the tissue with the fork and began cleaning the plate. All the way until it's sparkling white!
Okay, so second thing.
At the aquarium shop...............
I was neting some guppies and as everyone knows (i guess) that its so difficult to catch one particular guppy in a whole big tank of GUPPIES. So no choice i had to catch a few in my net and use my hands to scoop it up. And the one i chose, so damn beautiful wonderful, Jumped off my palm and landed on the floor. And i said "Yimlee! quick take it up!" She bent down, and up in split seconds. I thought she was such a pro that she could get it in a few seconds. Who knows, this is what she said. "I dont dare eh. Very disgusting feeling." I was like -.-!!!
So probably this is the end of the storyyy. Good night folks.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Steamboat last night. Erm not really fun due to the number of people there ._.
But the steamboat not bad lah, I wanna find more steamboat places to go to eat.

I have chemistry and D&T CT tmr. So not confident in chem. D&T can say byebye. Balancing equation, not bad lah still can cope. Wah but formulae names, i only know ammonia :/

Tmr die loh.

Friday, August 06, 2010

Ohh The inter-class games are finally over. Our netball team won the champion!
Wow my leg is aching much now. Bruises & Cuts all over.
SO LAZY TO UPDATE.

I almost died from sleeping last night :/

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Ha... Just reached home.
Ok today's schedule.


School. (I was having a very bad mood the whole day at school)
First lesson was common test, english paper. Wrote a report. I'm totally lost and stun becuz i dint even take a look at it or even wrote it before. Ok but still, i have to carry on. Then i was left with more than 20 mins, so i fell asleep. Mr ng tapped on my hand when he wanna collect the paper and i went "hmmm?" OMGOSH. So embarrassing. Ok then english 2 period. Slept throughout the whole english. Today ultimate sleeping day. Next was recess. then BLABLABLA.
Had assembly today, very very fun. We had people like Maya, zheng Xiang, sheryl and edwin to disturb.. Smth so bad : she kept looking in my direction! and no one was sitting between us to block my view of her. Felt so shitty when i feel her presence.

Then went for self study(AGAIN-.-). But at least it was better than the previous self study becuz today we had to revise on Chemistry, and Mr ng test us on the balancing equation. At first i was so blurr and disorientated when he mentioned that he would test us on the topic "BaLancing Equations". But nvm Ratana was there to help me out :d She taught me how to do it ^^

So in the end when i got tested, i answered all like a pro! HEHE. Thanks :)

Then after everything ended, went hub, mini toons to get our stuff. Then nana ended up in my house again. After that went to meet mum for dog's appointment. Sorry baoqiang, meet some other day. (you too paikia.cannot hang out with you :x)

Ok so now i got my ass home and im going to...

START ON MY D&T WHICH DUES TOMORROW.

Look, After all, You only gave me sorries. you dint give me a reason to trust whatever you said. I dont want just a sorry. You think just a sorry can shirk away all the responsibility you have to carry? Sorry, that's impossible.


Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Im just back home..
Ok today i had an epic fall in library in front of the whole sec 3e!
I was sleeping and resting on my leg. When i heard Mrs tan said to get lost from the room. I immediately stand up and my leg went numb. I fall and the whole sec 3e laughed at me :(

Then went for sellf-study by ng joon yong.
Nana went to my house after that, then went to AMK Big mac and met baoqiang and one retro uncle. Hair so cool. Went kpool. Then went back to house area look for old friends. There's this irritating guy who keeps coming and irritate me when he's on drug-.-

FUCK HIM TO THE MAXIMUM THANK YOU.

Whats wrong nowadays? Everything changed...

Monday, July 26, 2010

HARLOW

Hi world. This superstar here officially finished D&T. The most waste time subject ever.
This is a epic story of mine this morning.
I board the very-the-packed bus, and there was this uncle, lecher face.
Wearing shades when the sun is only half up. He was sitting at the priority seat while i was being squeezed at the entrance of the bus. We were quite near to each other and i saw he was like, looking at my body.(thats why i called lecher)
Then i was having this thought, "eh uncle dont think u wear shades i dunno u're looking at me hor. WTF siol"
Next moment, he lower his head and seems like looking at the lower part of my body. I got even more furious. But well i tried to tolerate until i can finally move away from him and his sight. And when the bus reached the busstop that many passengers will alight, the bus began to get empty. And i could finally get a full view of his body. THE MOST EPIC THING WAS, I SAW HIM HOLDING THE BLIND MAN STICK. I felt so so so guilty for cursing and swearing at him in my heart. Sosorry siol. HAHA.



Okay a lil' joke for you guys.
I forgotten when, that i watch this malaysia show called "Mr siao mandarin class".
This is a comedy just like "gao xiao xing dong".
Ok so they were having the so called mandarin class. Well everybody's speaking different languages and dialects :/
Then the teacher was like discussing with them about public transport.
He said, land transport. All the buses, taxis, lorry toyota corolla mercs all come out. Then next was The sea transport. Ferries, boat, sampan, speed boat came along. Next was the Air transport. All the aeroplane, hot air balloon, then one student said it out so loud. "lao shi! wo zhi dao! UFO!"


AND I WAS LIKE LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF LIKE A DUMB.
HAHA okay here are some overdued pictures

Friday, July 23, 2010

Just modified my blog.
School's definitely boring without friends i need.
But i have this feeling that everything's falling apart.

Anyway, woke up around 8, cuz of my sister's alarm clock! Now she wake up already don't wan go work-.-
Bathed for my dog. Then now online. WOOOO.

I wanna go toa payoh to find nana noww! But she's still sleeping.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Just reached home.
NPCC the whole day, so tiring and hot. Had to do foot drills, then train the younger ones. Then stand here stand there.
But nvm someone's being sweet. Waited for me in school whole day despite being soooooo sleepy. She's willing to wait alone and i even ask her to go home and sleep but she doesn't want. So me and Zheng xiang ran away straight after the lower secs got dismissed. HAHA We're supposed to go for debriefing but i didn't want her to wait on. I can't wait too! Too hungry.
Ok that's all for today.

I wanna get my haircut soon, very soon. my hair is irritating me too much. Frnge and the behind. Wah wanna make me have rash!

Oh baby you're making me mad! ♥

Thursday, July 15, 2010

you smile i smile

Don't be sad anymore ok. You smile I smile. Look forward to life and never look back. I know it hard to accept the fact now. But still, I can why can't you? I'm definitely gonna be a close friend of yours. But if u don't want,I can't do anymore things. Things are different now. I don't wanna blame it all on u. But, we both have flaws, not saying fault alone. So just smile ok...
Haiz. Imma selected member for MM :{:{
Got caught for smoking at school opposite the day before yesterday. So settled today..
Suspension 1 week, plus detention everyday within that week. Know what peterson said to me? look. "within that week of suspension, you have to do detention everyday after school. And ur detention place is at school opposite, the thing u do is STOP PEOPLE FROM SMOKING!" Most epic thing i ever seen.
Had MM today.. Kinda bored, yet fun.
This is all bah. Lazy to blog on.

N: You're the one who can bring me up now. Whatever u said matters. Thanks for that (K) :)
G: Stop all those. you're making me confused. But i will promise myself, not turn back again.
R:Just watch out u HOT DOG

Monday, July 05, 2010

SHEESHAAAAA

Planned to go sheesha today, with agnes sebas zheng xiang and edwin. then agnes said she got tuition! so we decided to cancel it. the next min agnes told us her teach cancelled the tuition so we carried on with our plan... Aaron joined.
NANA then said she wanna join. So she did.
Went orchard with zheng xiang sebas aaron edwin to look for aaron's bag, we combed the whole of orchard but dint manage to find it!
Then agnes went to bugis to buy her phone, and we met them there aftermath.

Headed to iluma slack and played arcade. Then went to Asian cuisine cuz nana and agnes wanna go eat. K then we camwhored there. Wentarab street for our sheesha.

the fan was blowing at the charcoal and it flew to my leg. i screeched like what like that and nana was so cute + sweet + caring, she went to pull the oscillation string to let the fan not blow the charcoal. I was stunned at that moment and i act as if nothing happen, i dint see anything. Was steady tbt! :D
Lazy to upload pictures! All in FB jiu dui le!

你走你的我走我的。这是你要的结局对不对?

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Once again, i gathered my courage to look at the archives. I told myself i won't shed a tear. Becuz it was my fault for chasing all these away. But i failed. Becuz its my fault, that is why im tearing for not cheishing it. Look at how we were in the past. How possible you want me to let go. One of your label, "tc okay :) noone will be contaolling you anymore". But now i want. I rather throw everything away including my brothers. I just want a return of the past. I want you back... I want to watch movie with you, go find you after school. Wait for you to end, I want to share your sorrows and happiness. I want to talk to you on the phone till i fall asleep.. I dunno what to do anymore.. Really i can't let go. Just like how you can't let go, i also can't.I want you to heartsoft again. I want to win you back.. I don't you to hate me.

But if you really wanna hate me, I cannot do anything. All i can say is i wish you happiness and take care of yourself. Don't let yourself fall again..




I gues this time you really not gonna heartsoft for me anymore. Looking back and regret, not knowing i will regret more. All i can say is i'm sorry and i will not do it. And everytime quarrel i would say this. I guess This already don't work for you. You say you hate me, hate bah. I dunno what to do to win you back anymore. Give up, i Don't want. Carry on, i don't think you want. I dunno what to do already, sorry. I cannot ive you anything. From the start, i din't give u happiness, that's why now everything ended up like that. Now you wanna leave me, i cannot do anything. I sent you so many msges. But you dint read it. I said i don't want to end like this. But you dint read. Maybe this is god's will...

对不起...

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Went to school today, yesterday night was kinda excited cuz agnes influenced me!
Ok so i was late on the first day of MY school day! Then morning, went detention area, saw someone jitao spoil mood liao~ then next saw crislyn but i think she nvr see me? And next news was, edwin kenna sent home cuz of his hair! HAHA. then mood started to swing when i saw another dog, which really spoils my mood. See him straight away pui nua! Geraldine scold me for being disgusting and inconsiderate :<
Bfore maths lesson, Geraldinectkq pulled me go find that "girl". HAHA, but i was reluctant, so i turned into the toilet. When we came out of the toilet, HAHAHAHAHA that girl was drinking water from the water cooler! I jitao laugh out loud. Aftermath, idk why she still wanna walk to the end of the block. Then saw the 鼻子断! HAHA we both were disturb that 鼻子断! Today, my mood went up and down periodically. What's wrong?!


I'm so glad, cuz for so long, today is the first time you took initiative to msg me. Should i smile or sad face?

Monday, June 28, 2010

Where you've gone to?

I hope daddy brings me to plaza sing now! :>

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Just woke up, Home alone.
Dreamt a dream. Grandma says since nobody cares why not let go. Quarrels everyday, does it means we both really care? No, she said she don't care. Action speaks louder than words. At times you encourage me, at times, you said you're afraid you would disappoint me. What do you want me to do? Can give me a definite answer? I swear if you want me to do the "action speaks louder than words", i wil definitely show it to you. Its the answer from you that matters.

School today, din't attend. Whole body injuries, mind confused, eye swollen how to concentrate? FML. I know school today would be fun. Haiz, but, still not prepared for the worst yet. I hope school never reopens. I don't want see shit things anymore.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Went work real late today because my Mr Edwin can't wake up! He listened to songs like one emo kid and fell asleep. He woke up and said, "omg my ears cannot hear liao!" So stupid right? Omg one whole week never make sales. Want die liao~

Tomorrow going sentosa with clique + some other people. Hopes gonna be fun and not boring :>
That's all folks!

I feel i fat le >:

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Recently, just had this hardfelt feelings back. IDK what to do with my feelings, seriously.
I hope i really can forget everything. I miss someone yet that person's not turning back for me. What esle can i do? I messed up everything. Now i'm expecting everything to come back That's impossible! How shameful i am! Haiz. Maybe i really should let go everything bah. it would be better. If from the start i waited, now i would have the answer already. Looking back and regret, not knowing i've done more. I was willing to wait. But at times your words really pierce. For all i wanted, i can wait. But all along, i was just waiting for you to say u wan me to wait. I always had confidence i won't break you down again. But maybe now, nothing's gonna happen again. You're a different person...

Yesterday, had nightmares and woke up so many times. And in those mares, somepeople kept showing up. The things i don't wanna happen, happened in the dreams! Is this sort of, like, comes true or something? When i woke up, i hope you would be here with me. Because i was really so scared and afraid. But well, impossible!

Where's the one i've been missing for so long? come back..

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Once upon a time...

In my life so far, there's this person name M.
M was so close to me when we were together. I went to M's house everyday, we shared everything together. We did many things together. When my grandfather passed away, M attended the funeral, and came everyday to accompany me, share my sorrows. But, one day, something happened. We broke up. M broke down drastically. Drinking everyday to hide sorrows, smoking so hardly. When i went to M's house to get my school bag that time, I opened the door ad entered the house. I saw M drank so many bottles of Vodka. My heart began to soften and soften. I threw away all the bottles of vodkas and paid M the money for it. M refused, and gave it back to me. I hugged M and said it was my fault to break up. Dont be like this. M cried and cried. And the last time, i accompanied M to sleep, then leave house.

Maybe its my fault for not treating her well. That's why she did that. I would like to apologise to all my past r/s.

Love=misery
I will not give anyone misery anymore.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010




Went to work today, then went shopping spreeeee!
Bought one thick hoodie, & one shirt from New Look.
Tomorrow's gonna buy one shoes which cost 99.90!
& one pants, look abit like Denim pants but it isn't! Wah the Cotton On's Denim pants ran outta stock! Ok nvm, even after sale, im still gonna buy it :D
& One school shoes. Havent decide on which pair yet :]
Photos, uploading later when edwin HOOOOO uploads it.
And and i'm sleeping without fan tonight! That stupid fan's faulty!

Monday, June 21, 2010

OH MY GOD I FORGOT TODAY WAS MY SIS BIRD DAY!
And Laopo Jolene Chu. Abit childish huh.
And Uncle Chuen's friend, ah seng.
Wah many many people bird day.
k happy birthday!




































Ok these are the photos. No much today. Went work, then no sales at all!!!! Thn i can't get my advanced pay :{ Tmr's gona shopping spreeeeeee!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :]

Firstly, Happy birthday to my mum!
Secondly, i'm sick now :[
Wondering whether would i need to go for work tmr.
Later most probably going for dinner outside. I hope mum would bring us to ion orchard! I wanna see sales! :{ HAHA yay tuesday going to buy shoes with edwin fooooooooo at suntec after work :D yay i now loaded le yay yay yay yay...

Haiz... But money can't buy everything
CrownP

Come back please?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

In case you don't understand me or don't know what i'm thinking, this is for you.

I have never open the letter you gave me. Until the day i realised you have somebody else in heart. I went to the plastic bear, Open it up. And look for your letter. I started reading, Tears flow down. I never knew what was happening. Until then.. I realised it was totally my fault for not cherishing you. I know it was past by looking at that letter. That is why at that period of time i can't let things go so easily. Everything came in a blow. I'm the one who made things like that.

When i wrote a return letter a the back of ur letter, I know i should really give up. I know i have no more chances to repent. Almost everynight i look at that letter. Just becuz you call me baby and say u love me in it. And cuz in the past, you would always sent "baby i love you,night" to me before i sleep. I know now its no longer that i can receive that type of msg. So i was abit foolish to look at that letter and take it as a goodnight msg from you. I shouldn't be so foolish. Its not coming back, i convince myself also got no point. And that letter, ir really means so much to me last time, now and ever. If you can't understand why i can't let go, you should take a look at that letter.

When you said last night that you dont wan flash back and break down, i was pondering why should i too. and by saying that, you made me think that the past no longer means anything to you. Does it meant whe i tear that piece of paper, everything will be gone, memories will still stay. And the hurt is done, it will never go away.

All i know is to make you tulan by mentioning these things. But you never take a step to understand me. You said you got it worse than me. are you sure? When you said me and S was so close and you assume i love her, i even ask you for patch. What does that means. And i never ps you and meet her, but you kept concluding that was what i did. I only lied to you once to meet her. its about the green bag.Then what about my condition? You proise you will follow me wherever i go, yet the next day i saw you with them. In that letter you say you will love me no matter what happens. Yah i know you still love me. But do you think this is the love i want? When that time i ask you to go home i even pleaded you. You don't want. You ever know i broke down in public? You said you never eat for 4 consecutive days. Then what about me? You said you broke down in school and everywhere. What about me? I'm breaking down everyday until now. I din't post anything bout S and shows that i concern. What about you? You know i can see it. Then what did you ever try not to hurt me? When you said i like someone else, i porve you by patching things up. Then now? You ever gave me chance? You said all the hurt i gave you, has made you not to gimme chance becuz you're scared. But how can i prove it? No ways i can prove it. And now u like someone else. And not giving me chance, you really make me think that person would mind alot. And this is why i dint stop thinking bout those things. I must always be the person trying to understand. but you said before, you will not let me understand you. Then who understands me?

I know i can only make you tulan, irritate you, hurt you and nothing else. I know i'm a useless person i can't make you happy. All these i know. But you also, try to understand me. Thanks.

You said i dint try to win back your heart. Yeah lah maybe to you i dint. But to me.. I think i tried my best. You blamed me for you falling in love with someone else. You think i want? I did everything just for a reason. Whatever i did was for you. Anyways, what for we ponder so much. What for we quarrel so much. We're much lesser than friends.


Shall not irritate you further. Please be happy and never fall again ok.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Today gonna go work now :]
yesterday, can say mood ok, can say mood abit down. Sentosa wasn't really fun. People's mood down, or kept wanna leave. Sianz.
Sorry bros especially ks. He tried to make me laugh but i'm sorry i don't have the mood to laugh. So just a fake smile will cover everything. also dont want cover him with wet blanket. Pictures is in fb.

I know you have been stalking him. You just can't get him outta your mind right? I can understand. I'll let him have you instead.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Didn't step out of house today..
Partly cuz no one's free except seb and zhihao.
Mostly cuz no money. Another day without meals again. My life like this totally sucks max.
Plus The things happening around me. I'm really so tired. Thinking and thinking and thinking.
STOP
THINKING
I hope everything would end, no matter how the ending is, i still want an end. I don't want both of us to carry on like this, hurting each other. Although i know nuts bout what u're thinking and feeling, I also feeling and "assuming" many things. Which i think might be quite true. Cuz time and action shows everything. And believe me, you'll care when you see i ain't coming back one day. Becuz this is what i felt.

Frankly speaking, Last month, i felt so helpless. And i had so much fear of receiving bad things. So fear of romance again. I just had uncontrollable bad attitudes towards everything. Its K.A.R.M.A

Its coming to get me. Even i regret now and worry now, It too late. Just like what she said, regrets always come in the end. And like what i told her. When we have it, we dont cherish it. When we realised we lost it, its not coming back anymore. and trust me, the next moment, that's what im gna say to you.

YOU.FUCKING.LOVE.FUCK.OFF

I've deleted some things, hope i won't delete the archives in future

Monday, June 14, 2010

What a crap.
Spent $8 to see what i dont wanna see, Hear what i dont wanna hear. what a joke.
Now, i've got nothing to eat. For the whole day i haven't been munching for even one little rice.
And i rather chose to accompany you since you insist. And i know so well the reason of you going to there instead of another. what do i get now? Expected lah ok.

You please get outta my life. Stop fooling me. I ain't you toy. If one day you'e ever in my shoe, pls look at how i am now. You totally ruined me ok. What a dog day today is. Once more, i pick myself up. And now, i won't let myself fall again. You left me with so much bruises and you just walked away like nobody's business. (Y) Nice one dude.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

我爱你你却爱着他
这场游戏我真的累了
你可曾想过我的感受
这样地对我公平吗

If that person really can give you happiness, i Don't mind.

Feel like going out. Today last day can go out with friends le.. Haiz. Life sucks.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Last page of chapter one

Its ending...

Goodbye my dear love..

WORK? WORK? WORK?

I'm starting work tomorrow. sibeh sian
momma planned it well and nice without me knowing! WTF.
Its at marine parade, its like. goddamn it far can. I could imagine how far a distance, and how long i'll have to travel everyday to and fro. i can't even meet my friends and stuffs. haiz i just hate it to work at the place i don't like. That's all. 0ne word, SIAN

Friday, June 04, 2010

Wah fuck, today is a damn great day to me. i just love it so much.
Knowing all the things i dont wanna know, hearing all the thing i don't wanna hear.
THIS IS GREAT, TRUTHFULLY.
Fuck my life. all the way.
Don't drive me mad, make me go the route that u don't want. seriously. i can be damn mean.
I can bear it when im really mad.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

SAKULALALALA

Went to sakura with bro sis momma daddy.
I ate 4 chawanmushi,2 oysters, 7 prawns, 2 dorli fillet, 1 salmon fillet.
I'm gna get fat :{
its a work out day tmr. ^^
Basketball with jz and co. at school opposite ^^
That's all. TOO LAZY.

After all that happened, i found us not being close.
I guess the story hasn't ended.

Tanpa





Maybe malaysia tonight, or either sat.
Dint went out today, :{
but maybe tonight??? hehe ^^
Sian.. If never go mlaysia, sure go out hit the earth with bros ^.^
Tomorrow, its time to whack'em!
HAHAHAHAHAHA..
It's time to forget bout the past and carry on with life! it might make my life better man. Haha.
Paikia life \M/




HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DAD!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

It's gonna be hard, not seeing you so many days and weeks.
I was weak when i'm supposed to be strong.
Sometimes, i feel like giving up. But yet, i held on because it was a promise.
I'm so tired when i know its all my choice, and i only have one choice, give up.
I really have no idea whether could i hold on, until i get the answer. Because no one knows how hard and painful it is, to hold on a string that is gna be broken.
It's my choice, and i know the choice that i chose was foolish.
Everything changed, even if i got what i wanted, things are no longer going to be the same as the past. Although it was so much that i wanted back the past, it's not gna fulfill me. This is the first time that we aren't contacting. I hope i don't break the promise.

It's gna be hard for me.

This is my challenge, but if i fail, I'm sorry. That's all i could say.

I hope we can have no more quarrels. I'm only left with these few days...

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Feeling so shitty now manzxz!
Wah stdy, not i dont wan forget. is just that its really hard to let go now. Cuz i realised my mistake, that is why im feeling regret and sad.

Especially now, the feeling is just too strong to be broken down, yet someone has taken over ur heart. If i could, seriously i wanna just forget everything. But the thing now is i seriously very hard to let go. So many people trying to councile me. Yet seriously i dont give a damn shit bout what they're saying. Just feeling so ignorant bout what the msg they're trying to convey. But i found it true though. But wahpiang eh. seriously i feel like dying.

I AM FUCKING HELL REGRETTING NOW!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010





NA class is definetely more fun than express classes i swear it man! They went science centre yet we have to stay in school, somemore in the D&t workshop. what the shit man.

Gonna prepare soon, hehe. later got something on, and the 2nd part of that "something on" is so damn impt to me although i know ITwill no longer be impt.


PS: The word hurt no longer exist in my dictionary

I just edited my blog anyways, there's a picture below yeah :]

Anyways, anyone noticed why dint i remove my plurk although im not using it? Cuz i just dont feel like!
2nd post!

So sian cant use net later lerr... momma kpkb-ing. I wanna maple :[
Tmr jz all going science centre, i feel like going:[
i guess next yr i sure drop to na liaoo~

Just kept thinking the same thing. Fuck mannnn!

Tmr's plan : Basketball at opposite, maybe. Next, course at Thomson♥
I'm gonna do smth after my course. Makes me so excited.
I wanna....
WAIT!

@the shelter. This time, i guess no one will come for me ever again. Just wanna wait again, once more. Wait for nothing... Used to see that "sweetlittleassyofmine" walking out with that ghost~
But this time, haiz.. Sure no one, But just hurting memories.. So might be home late!
tyehehe.

End of post.. Dont wanna thrash so much here. keep it in my heart :]
Basketball while waiting for edwin and co. , leg and waist sibeh pain ah. Then come le, go hub buy zhihao bag,mac, then go multistory carpark, relac relac abit.

Went ks house area bought chiong, then slack around there, then off to amk cc play bball again-.-
Homed now, here pain there pain. Especially heart pain :[

Seriously, 我老了
come my website,
www.gg.com.sg/AlexeaYongBoDiesOfPains

No lah fake nia lah.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Forget everything yeah?
G,

i'm ur devil, forget me yeah. Wish u happiness, successful.



And, edwin foo, i promise to go anything with a pair of shades. So that nobody knows im crying. :]
And walk in the rain wearing a pair of shades. its just like maplesea, family rep x2 exp + CS x2 exp + spirit pendant + ringer!
POWER UP.

Anyway, my game is over, i dont have to act anymore.
All i can do now, is sad to my fullest (Y)
I'd rather think of the past then current. It just stabs like a dagger.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

YOUR WORLD IS MY WORLD

My fight, is ur fight.
My breath is ur breath.

Just came back from primary school gathering, quite fun although not many people. Throw desmond down, next is malcolm!

Weiyen forgot to bring the butter, so we made him to go and buy, yet he bought margarine-.-
Next epic thing was, HE FORGOT TO TAKE A BRUSH.

Very epic thing was, WE CAN'T APPLY THE MARGARINE SAUCE WITHOUT THE BRUSH!

He was there acting cute, he thinks he looks innocent and no one would bully him. In the end, the girls massaged him with CHOCOLATE SAUCE! Very classic.
Now i'm back home, very boreddd.


Many things happened, i hop it would end earlier. I just hope you gimme a chance, we'll start afresh. I promise to treat u well, not like the past. And this promise, i will never break.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

REALITY

Many things happened within this few days. It also made me realise what situation and position i am in right now. I cannot decide for others, but i can decide for myself. I know i'm no longer impt in ur life. You used to need me desperately. But now, you changed. I know what to do already. I won't be like those who know they're losing the battle, yet kept on fighting. I surrender..

Last night, its a great heart to heart talk with GrisseldaP. That's the only thing that made me realise so much things. What i want to say, i have left it for you. That's all.


To all my siao bo group people, I'm leaving for malaysia on saturday night. after my primary school gathering bbq. Might be going for the rest of the holiday. Becuz my mom wans me to work in singapore. I stay in singapore, either be happy and play, or dont do anything. i dont wan to be tied down by works.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih

Sudahi air mata darimu

Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku

Kan menghapus dukamu sayang
Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku

Dengarkan dengarkan aku
Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku

Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu

Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu

Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu
Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan

Sekuat semampuku sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku

Dengarkan dengarkan aku

This song is great... understand it, u'll understand my heart. how much u meant to me. I need not say so much. i know it over.. i will not get my hopes high again

Saturday, May 08, 2010

谎言

I will engrave this two word, 谎言, in my heart.
nobody ever put themselves into my shoes to think for me. everything i did was wrong. i was wrong to care. Maybe the way i care is wrong, but it shows i care.
I was angry so i scolded those. I didn't mentioned bout the past. i was talking bout presently..
I know you're outside having fun with them again, i will and i already gave up. Forget it.. You said that sentence that really made me felt like kna bang by car. i felt myelf being pushed so hard that i flew... I was.. NUMB. Nvm. i will not look at the past. Eyes are grown in front of our head and not back of our head, so that we can look forward instead of the bad memories left behind us.

I hope you ignore me and pretend not to see me when we're in school. Hope when you go back, u will find ur true happiness, someone better than me.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Had a so bad experience at rkycia's chalet. so many bad thing happened..
lazy to blog.
bye. and i haven't eat from yesterday noon till now!

Friday, April 23, 2010

好累好累哦。
等下要出去了。
happy birthday to rkycia, yun hong, edwin's mom and bro :}

Monday, April 19, 2010

this is to save it here. like it read it. dont like thn dont read

Badminton CompetitionI scooped up the shuttle cock swiftly from the ground with my racket. When the judge blew the whistle so loud, it somehow startled me. I wouldn’t say I was afraid, but the sound of the whistle made me so energetic. As I was adjusting my service position, I felt butterflies in my stomach. But no matter how, I still have to carry on the match.I gave the first service and started the match. As it was just the beginning of the match, we had so much energy as if we could sprint around America. Both my opponent and me was hitting the shuttle back to each other just like the shuttle was a bomb. We didn’t want to let it fall. Out of a sudden, I heard a voice coming out of my mind and it says, “You’re not going to win if you continue this situation. Smack it!” Without hesitation, I smacked the shuttle in my opponent’s base. He was frightened by the sudden change of situation. I felt he panicked at that point of time. So I began to be careful of his actions. He smashed the shuttle back to me and then… “Service over” shouted the judge. This time, it was his service. He fired the bullet to me, as if it would really kill me. I could even see the sparks. But that did not made me feel fearful. Before the bullet could reach my shield, I was thinking to shoot it back with all my might. Being too confident of myself, and all I was thinking about was the trophy, I skipped my beat and overshot. I missed the shuttle. I heard the “click” sound of the shuttle falling on the floor.
To much disappointment, I felt so discouraged by what mistake I’ve committed. The coach kept quiet. My heart sank to the bottom of my body. I regretted for being too confident in myself at that moment. I picked up the shuttle and ask for a change of it. I hope it might make me feel fresh as it was also a fresh shuttle. Once again, I served gorgeously. I knew myself, I should not lose this match. We had a hard fight as the scores were not increasing. All our energy was drained by each other. I can see from his reactions, my opponent was exhausted. I knew I have to end this game earlier, or else both of us would collapse from the weariness. I smacked him so hard at an angle, and when the shuttle flew over the net, I saw it dashing towards him. It hit his nose, the pressure was so hard that his nose bled profusely.
I was disqualified by the judge for hurting him. Immediately I step out of the court, tears roll down my cheeks. I didn’t mean to hurt him intentionally.
After that incident, I’ve never joined anymore badminton clubs or take part in anymore competition. It gave me a very bad experience and it was engraved in my heart.





This is my compo. stored it here :]
我现在根本都没有心情读书!!!!

Friday, February 19, 2010














































hi im dead and revived again...









tdy mrs guan's lesson was so goddamn fun.









im so lazy to type so pic k